This is my brother.
Very recently he graduated from Le Cordon Bleu and is now a bonafied chef! Yup, my little brother all grown up and moving on in life. Working in a kitchen, lovingly preparing food, doing what he loves.
I'm really proud of him, and I made sure to let him know it. It's funny really, because as the older sister I'm supposed to teach him. I'm supposed to impart some type of "older child" wisdom to lead him through his life. In all honesty...he's doing great buy himself. In fact he is MY inspiration at this point.
He had a dream, he followed it, he succeeded.
So that led me to sit down and think about what I wanted. What was my dream? I knew at one point in my life I wanted to be a teacher. Thus, why I went to 5 years of college and obtained that hard won piece of paper called a Bachelor's Degree.
Bitterly, three years later, I realize that a piece of paper is only that. A piece of paper. It's what you do as a person that really makes all the difference, and my heart is no longer in the teaching world. Sure, I still love working with kids. I always will! However California teachers have become a husk of their former selves. Budget cuts, class sizes, layoffs. They all take their toll. I work with these brave people all day long, talking to them, listening to their woes, and realize...I'm just not invested in it anymore.
My apologies, I ramble.
Point being, this morning I filled out an application to a Masters Program in Library and Information Sciences. It felt right, it still feels right. This is what I want.
I'm going to be a librarian.
Thanks for coping with me through this rambling of a post. It feels good to put this out there. I'm doing it! I'm living my dream. I'm moving on in life. From shambles, to hope. Thank you little brother, I couldn't have done it without you.